~ uNfolding mY storybOok ~

Friday, December 15, 2006

quitt3r or a fight3r

quitt3r or a fight3r

is accepting equivalentent to quitting?
so is a quitter a loser?
but if accepting will make everything seems better, isn't that the obvious choice?
then again if accepting makes u a loser, will that still be correct?
accepting = quitting
quitter = loser
accept = loser?
so does it mean that one should never accept and should just continue fighting on and be stressed up and upset?
no... something must be wrong in all the above equations.
yah... i found out what's wrong... accepting is not the same as quitting. one can accept and yet not quit. when u accept, that doesnt mean u're a loser. u're only a loser when u accept and don't do anything about it. acceptance will make emotions easier to digest... but after that must learn to pick ourselves up and continue facing the battle. no matter what is the next outcome, what matter is you already know you've done what you could.
no regrets.
you've fought a great battle.
accepting != quitting
quitter = loser
so fight on!

thank u =) dd

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

03S15 chalet!!!

03S15 chalet!!!
haha... was just reminded that i could blog about the chalet! haha how right was I when I said I wouldn't maintain my blog! Yup, just came back from my JC class chalet! It was rather... I won't say exciting, but rather warm i guess, haha I can't find a better adjective to describe it =P.
Reached Downtown at 9+pm on monday. Went to walk around the resorts with my parents since my dad alrdy turned into the carpark (which collects a fee of $3/hr or part thereof), despite my insistence that he should just drop me outside haha! but oh well, i enjoyed the nice aimless walk with my lovely papa and mama... =)
Finally at around 9:40pm... I reached the chalet! Met S15 for the first time in about 6 mnths! jelvin, peiying, alwyn, qinning, shileng, chingsoon, chinyaw were there already when I reached. candice joined us a little later. When I got in they were telling me about the chicken and the chocolate bananas... I felt funny so I asked, "Isn't bbq tomorrow night?" And to my UTMOST HORROR... "HAHAHA bbq tomorrow? You can stay here on your own, we're leaving tomorrow morning!" Oh my goodness gracious, haha I thought the chalet was 3D2N when it was only supposed to be 2D1N. anqi! serve you right for not visiting the class google groups haha!
After candice arrived, we took a super long walk deep into pasir ris park. Nice walk, nice ambience, nice people, nice lame jokes and not forgetting nice brain-wrecking mystery cases to solved (where man A always felt guilty and commit suicide in the end) thanks to jelvin haha! If you guys are wondering what's that, can try asking me the next time you see me. It a game where you're suppose to know the ending and guess the sequence of events before that by asking yes/no questions. Haha it is oh well, addictive but very irritating as well haha... I'm sure qinning agress ;)!
Finally we reached an exciting playground! Haven't had so much simple fun for a long time! Playing with the swings, gasping at how peiying almost turned 1 whole round, laughing at all the guys who practically can't swing! Then we went on the try the small pyramid, which rewards you with a long silver slide when you reach the top. Manz, think I'm the only silly one who really sat down on the slide (and hence volunteering my butt to clean the slide for everyone -.-"). So after they heard that I actually sat on the slide and got my shorts wet and dirty, many of them rushed for a 2nd round! How sympathetic! Bleahz... haha... I forgot what we played next actually, but anyway the sequence isn't important. We sat around this big round plate with a gradient and it turns! Lots fun there... haha got really giddy and guess who had the most fun... alwyn! He totally enjoyed spinning us round and round with the speed of sound and laughing at how we screamed for our mothers! then there's this huge pyramid... and brave alwyn, jelvin and shileng attempted to conquer it, challenging the 2 little girls (barely 10 yr old) who were alrdy there! jelvin came in first! followed by alwyn and then the little girl in yellow shirt... haha poor shileng didn't managed to reached the top and had to ermz... endure the harsh comment of the little girl in white. Oh manz, kids nowadays... =P
Time to head back for the chalet. We were walking in 2 groups, jelvin, qinning, chingsoon and me were just behind the rest by a few meters (ok at most 10m). then haha we came to a point where the cleaning aunties decided to wash the floor, seperating the 2 groups! We were just a few meters away but we couldn't reach them on the other side. In the end we decided to follow a gorup of passerbys (with the same fate) and walked one whole BIG round to reach them.
Displacement: 10m
Distance: 467287654m!!!
Haha after that i went to meet dar dar while the rest went back to the chalet.
Back at the chalet, we were just torturing ourselves howling at whoever who's gonna fall asleep. Shared lots of silly comments, juicy stories and answered some very "philosophical" questions! But in the morning, everything seems hazey haha.... I can't remember more than half of what we spoke about! We went for breakfast at uncle MacDonald's before parting.
Woahz... Think I'm still feeling tired despite that few hours of dirstrupted sleep. I'm glad I went for the chalet! Haha... 03S15 hope we can meet up again before someone else flies off! =)

bOttLenEck

bOttLenEck


Have you ever felt this way before? You were in the midst of doing something and suddenly you just don't feel like carrying on anymore. Guess most people, or can I safely say everyone (old enough), would have experience this at some point in life.

Bottleneck... think that's what they call it.

Well, for a 20-year-old, I think I'm experiencing this a bit too often. Losing zest and drive in things I do. Finding it tiring to even live life, to interact with people, to maintain ties and relationships, to laugh or to cry. Haha don't worry guys, I'm not going to end my life or do something stupid... It's just that I'm reaching the bottleneck once again. Tired.

Recently, I've realised that I'm complaining a bit too much haha (just a tiny little bit)... maybe not to others but to myself. Complaining about how tiring life is, how stressful it is, how bad this is, how nasty that is... Guess my closer friends, my family, my cousins and of course yah dar dar would have heard me doing that sometimes. Thank you for enduring =)!

Maybe I need a break from everything. To hide myself in some secluded forest and meditate. Haha I need a breakthrough! Need to break that bottleneck...

Friday, December 01, 2006

~ uNfolding mY storybOok ~

~ uNfolding mY storybOok ~
"Everyone's life is different. Its interesting because its life haha...
To me life is like a story book that unfolds each page everyday. You'll never know what will happen until it happens, which is why life is interesting, and everyone's is different haha... So I would like to read your storybook. Thanks"

Haha... George told me this when he tried persuading me to start a blog. I asked him what's so interesting when people like me are simple minded, with no insights to life and would just blog about daily stuff. Then that's what he told me! Wow! How successful those words are... haha I am actually starting a blog!

Actually I've been thinking of starting one for quite some time. But in the end I'll always call off the idea because I know the plain old (ok hit the big two already… but still not that old =P) LAZY me will not spend time managing it! Haha... then again... after what George said and what I heard from Huiyian and other friends who are bloggers, I guess a blog is really worth maintaining, not so much for others... but more for myself! For me to reflect, to remember (yes, I know how forgetful I am bleahz...) and to expel some negative emotions haha and of course share the good ones.

Some interesting facts I read (in TODAY, 30 Nov 06) about blogging:
1. Global blogosphere is doubling in size every 230 days, a blog created every second (so here I am to contribute! ^ ^)
2. 18% of the Singaporeans (in a survey) were interested in politicians' blog
3. 74% of Singaporean bloggers are female!
4. 62% of all blogs in Asia receive 20 or fewer visitors in a week (HAHA)

Well, who cares if I have an audience or not... haha I guess everyone will agree that YOU are your best audience! So I am mine! Of course I won't mind if you would like to join me, as I unfold each page of my storybook... =)